A Small Spark In A Dark World

crayonfactoryblues:

There goes my hero:

Today is the birthday of a legend, when I discovered Kurt Cobain for the first time I was immediately captivated. Besides being a massive inspiration for me musically, from a young age I felt a real connection with that man and his music. The more I found out about him the more I felt like we had a connection, it might be insane or crazy to think that but I felt that with his music. Bare in mind I am far from the fanatic Nirvana hoody wearing greebo who owns only ‘Nevermind’ and likes all grunge because of Nirvana’s existence. Come to think of it in my view the majority of grunge was pretty mundane and cringe worthy, Nirvana were unique and were the only band for me of that era and genre. When Kurt Cobain died I feel that rock n roll died with him in a way.

Anyway, I don’t want this to turn into a rant so I’ll move on. Besides the trivial details like his birth being 2 days after mine, the Irish heritage, his self destructive nature, he had a relationship with his parents which I could relate to in a sense due to many distant similarities - “I remember feeling ashamed, for some reason. I was ashamed of my parents. I couldn’t face some of my friends at school any more, because I desperately wanted to have the classic, you know, typical family. Mother, father. I wanted that security, so I resented my parents for quite a few years because of that.” - Its way beyond that to me, growing up all my friends were pretty stupid and although everybody knew who I was in school in terms of popularity status I never had friends that were into anything I was into, I was always quite distant from everybody and hated the academic system. Cobain was my get away car, I’d get home and listen to him sing all night. I wanted to go to Seattle to become an artist, not a rock star but an artist like him.

What did it for me the most for me was the reckless passion and anger in his performances whilst he had these slightly withdrawn vocals where at times he didn’t articulate his words perhaps because he was too withdrawn although that’s just my perception, married with this horrible filthy kind of abstract guitar playing and hunched over posture whilst he got lost in the music like no other man has before, he in my view portrayed more passion and emotion into his music than anybody out there. Cobain changed my life, he had an impact on me like no other and was a big part of why I found my calling in music.

Sadly he is no longer with us but his music is and although there have been speculations as to whether he really killed himself, rumours of missing/additional suicide notes which state he wasn’t killing himself I guess we won’t ever know. Either way he left us with a wonderful set of last words if those were in fact his last.

And on a personal level he is part of what I am today as an artist and musician, so I dedicate this song to his birth and death. I chose ‘My Hero’ which was written by former band mate Dave Grohl in honour of Kurt Cobain, I was having this discussion the other night with a friend of mine; I think Dave Grohl did a fucking good job with that song!

(Source: axelloughrey)